To live thousands of miles away from the kajira one owns has its challenges. Even if it were a couple hundred miles, the challenges would be just the same. Yet to have the twinflame bond poses a serious hurdle when you are separated by miles and hours. For Me, I cannot be there to hold and soothe her as she deserves to be. Nor can I, at the moment, have her nestled at my feet to stroke her hair. There are doubts, plenty I have brought to light and vanquished for her. Yet a very simple question asked of her through a caring friend leaves Me hurting for an answer to comfort her with.

Aye, there is a reason that a Love Master needs to be strong when it comes to a love kajira. For it is easy, too easy, to meld the two individuals into one. It is difficult at times to keep Master and kajira boundaries marked clear when you care beyond words about that kajira. It take an uncanny strength to not compromise when you think that it may be good to give in a little bit. Yet as her Master, I do not have the choice in that. For if I start to compromise, My mastery would not be as complete as she needs it to be.

The pain I feel right now stems from the physical distance from her and the pain of what she is going through in her homelife. The pain comes from the strong connection My kajira and I share. The pain of not having a way to protect her from the pain of an impending divorce. Yet I persevere because I must for the sake of her and the two boys. I must persevere because I have fought for every little thing I have in my life. I fight because she had awakened within me hopes and dreams that long lay dormant. I fight because I can bear the pain and suffering  she is dealing with right now and still have strength to be the Man she needs Me to be.

Aye, the pain of this moment burns brightly but I have overcome pain greater and more worse than this. And I will be damned to give up on My kajira for I know how damn lucky I am she came into my life.

I know any lesser Man would be questioning why if I can feel her pain so clearly do I just walk away. Well, my answer is this. Any lesser Man may not have the courage and strength to stay and to make a kajira more in who and what she is. I do. I have seen my kajira for all that she is and is becoming from the first moments we have spoken. I have seen her, seen into her heart and soul and knew that she was mine, then and there. I am responsible for her and accept that she is mine in totality and whole. Even if I had the choice to walk away, I would turn it down. For any Man that cannot see what I can within my kajira is foolish and ignorant. For I see a woman that is beautiful and precious. A mother that is truly loving and caring. A kajira that aches and needs to serve her Master from the heart and soul everyday. I see a person that I have immense pride in. For she is not just my love kajira but also bestfriend, lover, confidante and my angel.